Need a Miracle

No one reads this since I have abandoned it...so it seems like a safe place to vent. Maybe vent isn't the right word. I have a friend in the fight of her life. She is more then a friend...she has been a sister to me. She is a sister to me. So watching her suffer absolutey sucks. Since no one is reading I'll admit my faith is shaken. I'm not afraid to say I'm mad at God. I figure not voicing it is ridiculous...it's not like he doesn't know my innermost thoughts. I'm mad. I'm confused. I'm broken. I'm sad. Can God do miracles. Yes. That is part of my frustration. I'm waiting for a modern day miracle. Waiting.